So it’s officially day three (5:30 am PST) of my first ever NaNoWriMo, and I’m not doing so hot.

Days before it all started, I had these great ideas floating around in my head, and visions of how much fun it was going to be. A mere two days later, and all I’m doing now is stumbling over my own thoughts. All those great ideas I had.. yup, you guessed it.. right out the window. They took all my blogging sense with them too. It’s as though someone came through my brain with some high quality cleaners and just wiped my slate clean. My emails are piling up, unanswered. I haven’t blogged. I haven’t tweeted. I’ve gone completely dormant.

After entirely too much stress, and feeling like a pressure cooker about to implode, I have decided that I need to just take a step back and breathe. If I don’t make the 50,000 words for NaNo.. so what. The point is that I tried. Do I want to be a published author someday? Yes, of course I do. Do I think I have it in me? Somewhere.. buried deep.. under all the other bullshit that springs itself on me daily, yes I do. It’s just taking me a little longer to find it, than I could have imagined.

All I want to find now, is my super soft pillow, a warm comforter, and my fat little kitty, who doesn’t mind if I snore breathe into his ears when I’m sleeping. πŸ˜†


17 thoughts on “NaNoWriM-oh-no

  1. keep strong and just keep plugging…there is no failure in trying… and also with writing some days flow better than others… just keep positive…

  2. Some of us are meant to inspire others with short stories and poetry, may I suggest being happy with what you feel strongest at… where you feel your passion the most and grow from there…. you have a beautiful gift of writing… may you always rest in the flow as you are guided to do… β™₯

  3. Hang in there, Phoebe! I’ve experienced lousy starts too but eventually managed to pick up speed. You have the right attitude about your word count. The simple point of NaNo (in my humble opinion) is to give you license to write without censor. It’s not always the right time, though. In 2008, I entered NaNoWriMo with a firm novel concept, even a synopsis and two chapters (I had started the novel as a part of a writing course). You would think I could have just sailed through November. But life happened … in my case, a job that was very demanding and left me totally drained at the end of the day. I think I wrote about 500 words for NaNo. That was it. I don’t regret entering though. I tried and that’s all that mattered to me. One thing you might think of doing is using your NaNo writing for your blog posts. I did that a few times in July. Whether those blog posts can actually stay in my novel remains to be seen, but it did help keep my sanity πŸ˜‰

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