One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

things going wrong
forward button stuck on hold
if only I could break out
of this same old mold

the pattern repeating
day after day
nothing about this life
convinces me I should stay

for every step I take
I go two paces back
no matter where I look
there is always a crack

I try to think positive
I swear that I do
shit just keeps happening
turning my thoughts to blue

too tired to continue
this bleak road I’m on
barricades all around me
my faith all but gone

tell me where to turn
where should I look next
if truth be told
I’m feeling quite perplexed

reaching out my hand
I take one final chance
if hope fails me now
I won’t give it a second glance.


12 thoughts on “One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

  1. I thought this was going to be about that Paula Abdul song where she danced with the cartoon cat in the video, so it ended up being a pleasant surprise. Nice work. πŸ™‚

  2. 😦 When one considers being compassionate, one seldom considers the self as a starting point. At 62, I’m learning this…it’s a dance – life, I mean. I’m not so graceful, either but…far into the future – at times – life shows a path. The path is usually inter woven with sorrows and struggles. I don’t know if sorrows and struggles make us stronger. I do know they can’t be escaped.

    Thinking of you, Phoebe.

  3. You’re probably sick of hearing how life is a journey, but it is Phoebe so there’s never ever two steps taken backwards – it’s all forward e.g. you wrote a poem today and you learned that if you reach out, and people came to try add something to your journey. Bear it like the other 7 billion of us because next, things will get better again before they…well, yunno. Some call it a roller-coaster. Ellespeth above calls it a dance. I couldn’t find a metaphor that was totally apt so I just call it life.

    I know where you’re at. It will pass.

  4. even in darkness and despair, you write with such aplomb. I wonder what might happen, if you allowed the light to shine from within, to believe that you are indeed beautiful in all that you are, all that you offer; so that the beauty and confidence with which you express yourself comes from that place. For that is the essence of you. You ARE courageous. Be well.

  5. Great ending to that. Bravo! But each poem is another chance … from 2nd to 4,032nd. Keep writing, its a wonderful way to keep the demons locked away. πŸ™‚

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